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Mindfulness Week- Day 7

today seemed to be the easiest… Except I didn’t get a chance to sit. And my body felt really anxious about that.

I went to my parents house to help prep for the wedding, which meant leaving right after dropping off the diva. Didn’t get as much done, so I’m heading back tomorrow.

An issue today… Siblings…

I have serious problems with my brother. I love him. I really do. I don’t understand his lack of tact. I mean, the worst jokes spew from his mouth, the most inappropriate comments, just yuck. It gets to a point where I don’t want to be in the house with him. Even if you tell him he’s being inappropriate, it just eggs him on and he’ll continue the same behavior. And I’m supposed to excuse it because of his “fragile condition” but I find it ridiculous to allow the crassness to occur. Today wasn’t so bad, and there are good days where it’s ok. But when it’s bad, it’s bad. Gay jokes, body part inappropriateness, just immaturity.

Honestly, I do not know what else to do.

I think my parents placate to him. Like they are protecting him. First off, they are never really are around when he is at his most crass. So, me saying something seems like tattling. And since we are all in our thirties, except my youngest brother, I am hoping we can handle this like adults. But the coddling and babying of my brother by my parents allows him to continue to stay a child.

I’m hoping to gain some insight about this. Not during this week, it’s over, lol. But sometime in the near future.

I really think his behavior is halting his potential. He’s a talented artist. I would love to see him throw his passion for being a baby into his art. I suggested Vipassana, but everything I suggest he passes off as some new age-y, hippie, vegan, bs.

I feel like I’m being judgemental, and I’m not trying to be.

Anyways, the 8th is Bodhi Day… I’ve planned a nice dinner for my daughter and I, along with yummy Bodhi tree leaf cookies! Yum!

May all beings be happy!

@tishushu